It’s October?

I haven’t posted since the end of May? What happened? Where did the time go? Every time I thought about blogging, something would distract me and turn my attention elsewhere. Sometimes it felt as though I was chasing myself…

Right after the last post my family gathered for a birthday celebration in Miami.

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It was wonderful but it was a lot; a lot of traveling, a lot of money and a lot of family. I’m always shell-shocked for a while after a lot of family.

Then it was back to Boston in June (with a stop in New York City for my birthday) for two weeks having fun keeping the middle little company again until camp started. I also got to meet the teeny little, the newest addition to my extended family. And I enjoyed can’t-beat-it New England seafood with old friends. Blessings all. Still, it was a lot.

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As soon as I returned home I had back to back houseguests visit, the last one for the the 4th of July. See, since I moved to the DMV I’ve had more company than I did in Boston. I get it, Washington DC is a great place to visit. My friends and family have been especially  excited to tour the three year old National Museum of  African American History and Culture. And who doesn’t want to be in the nation’s capital on the the 4th?

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I rounded out the summer with a mini vacay at beautiful Rehoboth Beach in Maryland with my daughter, biggest little and littlest little. Sun, sand, beach food, family and fun.

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Before I knew it it was Labor Day. The whole family gathered in Boston for my son and daughter-in-law’s first anniversary. We had a big barbecue. When I say the whole family, I mean the WHOLE family; offspring, their partners, grandkids, my siblings, nieces and nephews and their kids, their Uber drivers…It was a lot. It was a lot of summer.

Here’s the thing, while I was traveling all over, accommodating family and chasing myself I didn’t notice that I wasn’t balancing the whirlwind with self-care. I was enjoying the people and activities but I was neglecting the other things that feed my soul, like writing. I wasn’t working on the revisions to my novel and I wasn’t blogging. I wasn’t going on the nature walks that allow me to access my poetry muse. I know better. A long time ago I committed to taking responsibility for my procrastination and creative blocks. Yes, my family will always come first but I still have time and energy to devote to writing.  So, the question is why wasn’t I able to stop in the midst of all the hubbub and center myself so I could balance the two? I did it in Tulum. I guess just because I’ve learned some important life lessons over the years doesn’t necessarily mean I can consistently apply them. But I write because I must so here I go again. In the words of Rainer Maria Relki,

“a new beginning is always possible – who should refuse it?”

 

 

 

 

 

 

11 thoughts on “It’s October?

  1. Kat, your self-reflection was inspiring…..taking responsibility for one’s own self care and balancing it with other demands. Exactly what I needed to hear today. Thanks!

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  2. Agreed. If you and AJF find yourselves in the Boston area definitely check out Jasper White’s Summer Shack. Awesome casual atmosphere, giant lobster tank and excellent seafood. Oh lord, I sound like a TripAdvisor review.

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  3. Yes! The struggle is real to set aside time to write, for self-care and all of the other things we’ve figured out are necessary to nurture our soul. I think I’m at the point where I believe that I can achieve balance. We do the best we can and adjust along the way. What’s most important is that we continue to return to our creative work.

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  4. I feel that. We all do it, though. We do. Love, sacrifice, laziness, work, commitment just eat their way in because that’s the gig. It’s so important to take the time, but have you noticed we almost have to fall apart to recognize our center’s loose? I am so glad you made great memories with family and how wonderful to travel, but I hope you get some outdoor time and your muse sings sweetly. ❤

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